Dean McDermott has had quite the rough year in his marriage to reality TV actress Tori Spelling. The “Chopped Canada” host admitted to cheating on Spelling with Emily Goodhand, but wants to repair his marriage. In a new interview, McDermott talked about how dark things got between himself and his wife and on a more personal level, revealed that he’d contemplated suicide. The actor also stated that he plans on nixing his involvement in “True Tori” after the current season’s storylines play out on the small screen.

McDermott revealed, “I’m not going to continue with the show. I can’t do this anymore. I can’t keep opening a vein, opening my soul and sharing my feelings and demons with the world.”

The current season will be over after the remaining five episodes air, but afterward he is concluding his involvement in the reality TV series. With regard to his darkest moments, he revealed, “I was driving around in my truck with a loaded 9 mm. I was put on a 5150 at the UCLA psych ward.”

Dean McDermott says that things have been better since that incident. He said, “I’m on the right medication. Things are looking up right now. They’re good, today.”

With regard to what the future holds, McDermott is looking to forge ahead with his acting career. He said, “I see myself on a scripted show. I’m getting back to my roots, I’m getting back to acting. I went out and auditioned for a [part] on a ‘CSI’ and got it…[it’s airing] December 14.”

Dean McDermott and Tori Spelling’s reality show centered around the broken couple seeking help through counseling in order to mend fences within their marriage. Perhaps when the reality TV cameras stop filming, McDermott and Spelling will actually be able to really work on their marriage for the sake of themselves and their four children together.

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