It occurred to me the other day, as my email inbox swelled to about 495 messages (the oldest just a couple of weeks…) that something interesting was showing itself.
I was reviewing messages, then marking them as ‘unread’ again because I just didn’t want to deal with them at that moment. I get into that kind of head space now and again, and it shows really quickly in a few places, most notably the dreaded pile-up in my inbox.
So, as I was thinking about it, I realized that I was avoiding making decisions. For whatever reason, when I get into that space in my mind, I don’t feel comfortable, or perhaps I don’t feel confident making decisions – even little ones. And honestly, that’s all dealing with email is, making decisions.
As I continued to ponder, I realized that it extends to other areas of my life as well. Clutter comes to mind right away… it’s the same thing, fear of making a decision, of doing something wrong.
Then it hit me. All of that is related to not trusting the Universe (or Source or God, whatever your preference).
So here’s the equation I wrote out:
Clutter = not making decisions = fear of doing it wrong = not trusting the Universe
What do you think?
(P.S. I’m happy to say the inbox is at a manageable 10-12 at the end of the day right now… but that’s the beginning of a slippery slope… )